Hi momma, sorry I read your posts a little late. I feel for you and fully understand. The hardest part for me, when I am in an anxious period, is going back to work.

"What if I panic?"
"What if I feel worried"

The What If's only serve to make me feel worse. But then after a while I realize that its like jumping into the cold pool. I would spend longer worrying about it than just seeing how it would be. You can get acclimated to anything, and have to remember the time when you felt that pep in your step, that "go getter" attitude.

I have to tell myself that constantly, and am guilty of not remembering that when I need it. Its funny how I can go from "I'm so scared to face the world right now", to "Stand back everybody cause here I come".