I apologize if this is the wrong forum.. I don't mean to offend anyone if it is.

My mother says hurtful things often so I try my best not to be around her. When I am, all she ever does is belittle me and my sister, lie, and complain about my father. My parents had been married for 15+ years before an abrupt and traumatic divorce. My father was physically abusive to both me and my mother, but never touched my younger sister. He has maimed multiple pets of mine and run the family into serious debt. We moved to 3 states over the course of one year. I grew up in Arizona, we lived in New York briefly, soon moved down to Florida, and now I am back here in Arizona. My mother was not present. Mind you, I never had a strong relationship with her growing up prior to the divorce and rarely saw her except the weekends (she had a full-time job).

Now, 2013 almost 2014, and I've been in this situation for 3 years... but I wish I wasn't here at all. We get into physical altercations often and I still have scars to prove it. She degrades me whenever and wherever she can. Friend over? Let's ask her about some teeth-cleaning tips (I don't have the best teeth in the world..) Boyfriend? Have him take a drug test. In public? Yell at me, mock me, telling everyone I have a low-IQ and apologizing for my mistakes. At home its no better. There has never been one day where she isn't A) trying to guilt-trip me for wanting to be with my father B) yelling at me for petty reasons and blaming me for the divorce or C) obnoxious praying for "forgiveness"

Time and time she has promised to correct her actions but it has been a repeated cycle.
>I accidentally say or do something to irritate her
>She throws a tantrum; literally kicking her feet, jumping up and down, slamming things around (she's broken a laptop, tablet, and the lightswitch), and screaming.
>I go to my room and close the door or attempt to leave
>She corners me into the hallway/bathroom
>Begins to scream insults at me, occasionally throwing things at me
>(We may get into an altercation and then she leaves. And sometimes I try to ignore her)
>If I ignore her, she will say something waaay out of line, realize what she's done, and leave until late at night.
>Returns with some bull** about love and forgiveness, and apologizes to me.

I used to hug her. I used to kiss her. I used to tell her I loved her. But after three years of this crap? I can't do it anymore.. and its coming to a point I don't even want to be around her. Its not like she is making an improvement in her behavior either; the tantrums only get worst and the insults are heavier.

Two months ago she pulled me aside and told me she wasn't going to pay for my college tuition. She said she didn't believe I could graduate and my artwork was mediocre at best. She was, however, willing to put my sister through culinary arts college as it had a more promising future. She even had me do an IEP. The school did not approve of it, she FORCED the lady to give me the test. Not only did it ruin much of my social life (the Special Ed room where I went for testing is located in the middle of the campus, and everyone believes that I am special) in which I passed all three tests and yet she still claims I have a low IQ and insults me because of it.

I do not have any immediate relatives I can turn to and my friends think I'm special and refuse to be seen with me. It gets so hard sometimes and I want to quit I want to leave but I just can't live with my father