I am glad that some of the feelings and thoughts are starting to subside. I didn't realize you were not in the US, my mistake for not paying attention. Here there are national and regional hotlines, some for suicide prevention and some for crisis.

It seems like secret whisper has found out some places to call. Remember that you don't have to give out personal info. You can use a false name and not give your address or anything else out. They tend, at least here, to not want to have others intervene so it is usually possible to talk about this type of thing and get some relief.