That is how I felt about my time in the psych ward too. It's unfortunate but because these places are basically designed just to stabilize (which really means drugs, drugs, drugs) and get the patient into an outpatient program, the staff is often (not always) insensitive and often the attending psychiatrists can be cold too. I really, really felt like I had stepped into the movie "One flew over the cuckoo's nest". My T told me that many of his other patients also complained about the psychiatrist I saw.

The kind of place you needed are rare now, they exist but one has to have money to go to these places. My T told me that the kind of places that "used to be" more attentive are just too expensive to have now.

I am very sorry you experienced that and it traumatized you, me too, so much so that I experience flashbacks and chills during the Thanksgiving holiday because that is when I spent time in that psych ward. I am so sorry you feel it is embarrassing, I struggle with that too.

((Hugs))
OE