Thanks for all the responses! I leave contained every.single.time. No matter what. And I sometimes wonder how it appears to my T - like if he thinks I'm not being "real" with him or something. Idk. Like last week, I was really angry at him and we worked on that for the whole session...and then when it was time to go, it's like I snapped back into place. I always put a smile on and shake his hand and calmly walk out the door. I don't feel that way, but seems like I automatically put myself back together. Once in my car, I often cry or whatever I need to do to process it.

These responses helped me to see I'm not the only one so maybe it's the norm (?)

I'm also conflicted though, as I fear not being able to contain it at some point.....I'm holding back A LOT and worry if it comes out with my T, will I be able to pack it up and leave ok? I do worry about that and wonder if it is interfering with my therapy