Freewilled thread inspired me to post this thread. For the past two sessions I have not been talking all that much, and when I do I talk to the floor. I have been telling t how unsupportive my h is being at times and , controlling, and calling me mental names,

On top of that I have been dissociating , h yells at me when im in that state, I have flashbacks. I understand holidays are not great time for us.His mom which I cant stand is in congestive heart failure doc said her heart is giving out and her kidneys and there is nothing they can do, just live out her days,

This is a big TRIGGER for me because thats the way my moms husband died (csa) this is bad for me . My t noticed the trigger today and stupid me even denied there was a trigger, I have been feeling miserable.

spoke some about csa today told her something very embarrassing and when she explained why it was not, I put my hands over my head and doubled over in my chair out of embarasment, I felt like they were ripping out my heart.

we did grounding excercises before I left but I left the room with an open wound and I feel miserable. Thank you freewilled for inspiring me.