Welcome Stiven, glad to have you here.

You are almost my kindred spirit. I, like you, am a virgin, and I'm 31. And like you, I have always been painfully shy around women, especially attractive. I use a self-deprecating sense of humor to hide my lack of confidence. With me, trust issues born out of bullying in middle & high school hurt me too. I had friends in college who would tell me that a girl wanted to have sex with me, but I wouldn't believe them because of my paranoia that they were setting me up to look stupid. What I wouldn't give to just be able to have one night, one woman

I share your feelings too about the issues of having not had sexual experience. Women want men our age with sexual experience. Well, how are we supposed to get it? I have attempted to take Illegal Toilet's advice, but I have been ripped off by one escort and had one other reject me BECAUSE of my virginity. So I truly feel your pain, and hope you can find some happiness with a woman, even if it's a one-time shot. You shouldn't have to feel like you don't want to live (and I will admit yesterday I had suicidal thoughts driving to work because I don't believe sex is meant for me).