I knew there was something different about me when I was in kindergarten, but of course I had no idea what it was. When I was about 15 or so, I did suspect that I had bipolar 2 after taking my high school health class. I was cutting when depressed yet sometimes I would get insanely hyper and act very eccentrically. I never told my parents this though because they totally brushed me off when I said I though I had ADHD. I didn't want them to be on my case so I decided to keep quiet.

Ironically when my psychiatrist told me I had bipolar 2 when I was 19, I viciously denied it and felt she was full of ****. This is because. I was misdiagnosed with depression and finally coming out of it. Apparently I was hypomanic at the time. I didn't want her to kill my buzz and the thought of being put on mood stabilizers frightened me.

It wasn't until I had my first manic episode in October that I realized I did have bipolar. The diagnosis was then changed to bipolar 1.