Violet - I encourage you to work through the pain and anger however it works for you. Whether journaling, posting on here, exercising, talking about it...maybe all of those things...the key to resolution is acceptance. Once you get to the place of acceptance, you will be able to move forward. It sucks what they did to you. It hurts and its painful. You deserve better ! They treated you like crap...work out those feelings while they are still on the surface - don't allow them to get buried ! Don't push them under ! You will get through this. Be kind to yourself. You know what Violet - if that's the way they feel about you - they don't deserve to have you in their life. You are more valuable than that. They don't deserve your time and attention if that's how they treat you ! What they did shows a total lack of respect and lack of love for you. You deserve way better ! Find things that you enjoy doing to take your mind off of it. Carve out time to work on it and then put it away after that time is over until you are ready/able to work on it some more. Again - once you come to terms with what has happened - acceptance - you will be able to move on. You will get there. I have faith in you !