I have been having an internal debate (for over a year now) about whether or not I want to try going on medication. Overall, I have not had a terrible time without meds. Yes there have been periods I made stupid decisions and times I thought about 's' but there haven't been any arrests, hospitalizations, or broken relationships. It is mostly day to day things though it feels like it is building up into something.
Part of me is very wary of medication. My family was very anti medication growing up and I don't talk about my bp with them at all. Since I haven't had any big issues yet, I'm worried meds might cause more issues than they help. The first therapist I saw actually told me she could not see me unless I went on medication which I obviously did not do and the second one said I really should go on them no matter what reservations I have. My few friends I talk to have differing opinions and my fiance just says whatever I want to do, he will support my decision.
So the question I have is what experience have you had with meds? I know many have had multiple changes and side effects and that makes me more wary of them but I'm some out there have had positive experiences. I'm just totally lost about what I should do. Like I said, I've been debating going on meds for over a year and it is almost a daily conversation in my head which has gotten quite tiring.