Thank you! I feel deep gratitude in my heart for my message having been read, and the sending of "hugs" and messages of support. I feel welcomed, emotional flaws and all...
Feeling lucky to have found a place to talk/ask for support outside of the regular support arenas. Even just reading others' posts and replies, or my replying, is already helping.

@Wave1: yes...SHAME... biggest cause of my problems...only way around it seems to be to talk about it... to examine where it came from and thank whatever part of myself is trying to protect me with it???, then to re-program myself to know we are all beautiful and precious and nothing could have been other than it is, or can be other than it is right now...but, we do get to make choices based on our pasts, and we do get to accept ourselves and do the best we can... and find peace... I am determined to find that peace... I have approached it and i know it is waiting for me...

See? Just receiving these few replies has already helped me be able to think those thoughts and share them... and believe them... community is SO important! Especially community among those who suffer the same "flaws." I DO believe that there are deep strengths to be found in each of us...under our fears and shame...

Looking forward to sharing more and to learning more about you and Trippy, et al... to be able to be supportive in return.

I will write a proper bio when I am able.

Wishing you all sweet dreams~
Chloe