You would like to express some aspect of yourself more colorfully, but you feel constrained by culture, so much so that you feel angry and oppressed.

Carpet baggers were opportunistic northerners who came to exploit the defeated gracious south. They were consideres greedy, low class boorish people and they were resented for buying up the rui.s of the grand old south. So you could feel drawn to expression of something you associate with India, but you dont want to look like a carpetbagger, which could mean you dont want to exploit and disrespectfully (like western feminists appropriating the hindú female god Kali) or you fear looking like a contemptible outsider to your own culture.

Maybe Im projecting. Im one of those older wasp women who would love to wear beautiful panjabi suits in summer but fear people would roll their eyes at me.

Watch out for the black girls in your basement. They dont care about your stuffy old culture. They are young, oppressed, and angry. So are you, deep down.