Im sorry they are distressing you so much Have you tried cutting back on the weed yet? I hope the job goes well.

Someone on this forum gave me some advice about intrusive thoughts, see them as annoying children. They have no more power over you than an annoying child does. The more you stress about them the worse it will get, so chill out, see them as thoughts you cannot help and try your best to ignore them and move on with your day instead of dwelling and upsetting yourself.