Yeah I get that. It was a loooot more pronounced when I was younger. Now that I'm working full time it's not as noticeable as I'm doing the same job as my coworkers, who are all sorts of different ages.
I never really fit in with my peer groups - I was usually in the mental mindset of the next age group up really. It was frustrating, because by the time my peers would get to the next level... I'd be on to the next one too. I'm not really sure what age group I skipped, but it was definitely a younger one as I only remember it being like this.
And yet at the same time, I feel like I'm stumbling around. I look and act like I've got everything together... but I don't. The things that tend to come easily to a lot of others as adults - cause a loooot of anxiety for me and I avoid them if I can.
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"I have a problem with low self-esteem. Which is really ridiculous when you consider how amazing I am.
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