I usually look forward to seeing my T every week, as it's a chance to get things off my chest that has been bottling up the past week. Today I just want to skip out, not come back, just disappear.

I'm afraid of telling him what I've done the past week. Afraid he's going to drop me as a pt, or refuse to see me for some time. Afraid that he's going to call 911 on me right there in the office.

I'm seriously freaking out about this session today, and I don't know what to do. My crisis T is supposed to call me today and check up on me (and she works with my T) and I hope she calls me before my appt.