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Old Dec 12, 2013, 03:34 PM
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>no one wants to hear stories about people's abuse especially if I have already mentioned it to them

Wow, it sounds like people hear the content, but you never feel really deeply heard. You don't feel any empathy coming your way. Is that right?

If that's so, I'm sorry. I feel punched in the gut that you are stuck in this and cry every day for 15 years. I've cried a lot, too. I'm "reparenting" or learning to give myself love I never got, and I'm to a stage where meditation helps, but my very loving husband who is willing to hear me really helps, too.

Is there no one who will really hear you? No groups for people who have suffered as you have? What does your therapist say about this problem? It sounds like you need a lot. I find it helps to move to present and future from past, but I also know that past can be quite invasive. I'm glad I'm starting to be able to let it go, but it keeps coming back. It sounds like that is happening for you, as the past plagues you and leaves you in tears and helpless. Maybe you can be heard on this board. There are many people who have suffered CSB here, and areas where it's discussed.
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