I think I slowly got used to feeling churned up and disorientated after sessions, and then in turn started to allow the pain/upset/discomfort to come into my consciousness at other points in between sessions to. I turn to my T. Having her 'there' is keeping me right throughout this period of my life. It's like climbing a mountain in deep snow in the dark. It's bloody challenging and easier if one is not alone, but holding hands with somebody else over difficult, dangerous terrain.