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Originally Posted by s4ndm4n2006
You don't forget. Unfortunately memory is not a selective thing we can just wipe out a memory. But you CAN close the book on this guy. I've learned over the years, for one thing, how to close the book on people I cannot be with that I really wanted to at some point. I wish I had a good explanation but I've learned that love is a choice more than anything. The yearning and wanting of someone is not something easily turned off, period. But that is not the same thing at all. Once you find a way to just decide to accept that it won't be, you can cherish the memories and what you dreamed of as great things that could have been but no longer need to ruin your life. All of the things above you mentioned you don't want to hear, also help but only after you've accepted that the chance of having him is gone.
This to me is a very telling statement. That you say you want this man but you resent him for doing well for himself. Have you ever asked yourself why you resent him for this?
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Because he has hurt me so much. Because I depend on him with my heart, and he doesn't. Because I love him and I just can't give up hoping. He was a drug addict and left me after he did rehab, he broke up with me on the phone. He doesn't realize what he did to me.