s4ndm4n2006
He was on a prescription drug "methadone" for over 5 years, he never tried cocaine or anything like that.. I used to think that this is just something that he needs to kind of "keep him alive", he was never high or anything like that, so I would never even think that this is not him. But after his treatment he completely cut me out, we lived like a married couple, was I fooled by him? I don't understand now wtf was it! It is like a very bad dream, sometimes I wake up thinking that maybe reality is a dream, and now that I am awake I will see my true reality where we are still together. Despite anything I loved him and I can't believe he would do this to me. I never felt the need too protect myself from strong feelings to him because I also felt loved. How can I close this book? everything is still out there in my heart. I am hoping maybe he will come back to me, maybe it is a mistake.