i would appreciate a lot hugs and nice words... so far even though i want to vent and explain what's going on with me so i can have your suggestions... i'm so tired and at the same time scared of explaining the whole thing... and logically my issue is not a big one... however to me...it feels like the end of the world...i've come to realize that everyone has its own weak point and i just got hit on the weakest that i have...