Thanks Newtus! Normally I notice within a week, but this time...nothing. My doctors say things that I know isn't true, so I find it hard to believe them when they say I don't have psychosis. They say it's because I don't talk to the voices, well some people here don't talk to their voices and why would I talk to them out loud when they can hear all my thoughts?! They also said it's because the voices come from my childhood, yet all the books I've read lately say that the voices come from our past experiences, so it surprises me that they don't know that. They also said that in real psychosis, the voices say random things, well I have random hallucinations too, especially when my printer talks to me. And they say all my beliefs are consistent with my mood which makes it not psychosis, yet I don't think that's true and that doesn't explain the time that I thought my subconscious flew off and overheard other people's conversations, but they've dismissed that. And real auditory hallucinations apparently are only outside your head, but they dismissed my external voices and focused only on the times they're internal. It's like they're fitting my symptoms to fit their current theory.

Unfortunately I am stuck with these pdocs as long as I live at home. At my last meeting, she even tried to persuade me not to go back to my Uni pdoc!!! She was talking about "continuity of care" and changing diagnoses, but I could tell she didn't want me going back and have him tell me that they were wrong and I do have MI/depression/sza/whatever. I don't know why she would care what happens when I move though...

*Willow*