From scrolling around here and reading I have found many insightful posts and I'd like to start by thanking every active member of this site. I'll get right to it...

I find myself often dealing with problems where I am not directly involved, to be a little more clear, I find myself paying for the actions of the people around me. Looking in the past year if I had to list 5 things that most effected me emotionally, I am really only directly involved in 1. Whether it's surrounding family members or friends, most of my stressers are not from my own actions.

Upon reflection I question whether maybe I am giving myself less blame than deserving but some instances I really feel like I did absolutely nothing. The biggest thing I've dealt with this year is the divorce of my parents but things like having to cover for my friends also happen and it's interesting because I always seem to bear the brunt of the repercussions.

I guess I'm just at a point where I'm wondering where exactly to go or how exactly do handle things better so that I can avoid being put into these situations, I'm also questioning whether I am too lenient on myself and maybe I do have to hold more blame for my struggles. I feel like it'd help having other people to kind of look at my situation, it's pretty hard for me to talk to anyone in my life right now about this so I came here...