I do this too. I sometimes avoid talking about what I really know I should, or maybe I actually do bring up the general topic. But she doesn't understand why I brought it up, and I don't tell her the specific details about it that would explain why. I speak in generalizations and make things really vague because I'm afraid of what will happen when I reveal the ugly truth. I hunger to let my T know the truth, and yet I desperately want to hide from it.