I feel no pain when people close to me die. I often find myself completely faking emotions to imitate normal people. If I choose whether or not I feel empathy towards people or animals does that mean I have no empathy? This is just the way its always been and I'm beginning to realize that emotions are supposed to happen on their own. I get happy and angry at normal things like everybody else, but when it comes to sadness and grief, I simply choose whether or not I will use it. If my parents died today I wouldnt feel any different at all. Do I love them because they have provided for me or because children are supposed to love their parents?

I guess what Im trying to say is that If I dont want to I simply will not feel any kind of emotional pain, is that normal?