Soconfused, I hope you figure out what you want most. I have friends who never married and are totally happy that way. I have friends who are married but no one would know because they never talk about it and kept their last names. Both couples appear happy. I guess you just have to think about what it is you need most. I also have a friend who NEVER committed when he was young and it took him like 7 or 8 years to marry his GF. But just when we all thought he never would....he did. It took me 6 years and a lot of prodding to propose...I just didn't have that need and felt that I had met the person who I wanted to spend the rest of my life with.
Good luck.