The amount of times I've been diagnosed with something different than what the last person said is just INSANE! So IDK where to even post on here....
I feel like crap. Social Phobia is just a definite thing for me. That I know, no matter what anyone says. It just hurts me SO deeply that no one takes it seriously. They (by they I mean friends and family) ALL say "everyone goes through that". My phobia is SO bad that I've left my house THREE times since thanksgiving, and one of the times I just sat in the car the whole time. It's never been this bad and it's only getting worse. I want help...but I have no insurance. And what good is it if no professionals can agree what it is I really have other than PTSD, Depression, and Anxiety? They've thrown around BPD, Bipolar, OCD, Attachment Disorder, and Dysthymia. So it would be hard to get good treatment. Cuz those are pretty different....but so similar at the same time. I don't even have the motivation to write anymore....but I have so much to say. I just don't want to feel like this anymore. My life has fallen so much further apart since My last posts....here's a link
http://forums.psychcentral.com/borde...-helpless.html
I just don't even know where yo go anymore...what to do....anything.
I went through a REALLY bad alcohol problem, pushed away so many people, stopped going on here. Just....went crazy. I wish I could die and be reborn as someone without all this crap. I feel SO hopeless. And I'm SO sick of people telling me to "just be happy" "it's in your head" "you don't need to get help, you can fix it on your own".
UGH, maybe I'll write later...