I'm not diagnosed with disassociative disorder, but I am diagnosed with depression. I have been getting odd symptoms of being stuck in "The Matrix" or my life is like a film. I noticed I shut down in public, and others see that. I get this surreal feelong i'm not really who I am and I do not actually perceive what's there like everything is an illusion or dream.

I feel like I'm stuck in this dream and I feel melancholy. I sometimes cry thinking my life is made up and my family are just a figment of my mind. Then I get really angry at myself for thinking that the universe revolves around me.

Then I start thinking if I'm just a part of a beings imagination. That I am just an experience to look subjectively upon this being that is singular, but is everything. I hope I don't sound insane, or dumb.