The "good relationship" with my mom ended when I was about three. So yes, it ended way too soon. It's upsetting if I think about it too much. I went through a similar loss with my older siblings and extended family and that was all done and over by the time I was 9. They all hurt the same.

Whenever I've lost other people over the years, whenever they've left... it brings those feelings back up. It hurts and it makes me feel a bit angry and confused, because I don't know what I did to be rejected so often and so easily.

The ones that aren't family hurt the most now, because I'm more numb to the family stuff by now. And I can go "well... I didn't choose my family, but I did think I made a good choice with X." which makes things easier with the family... but harder with friends.