Hi,

Around 8 months ago, I looked at internet for help, and basically posted my problem online at few forums.

forums.psychcentral.com/new-member-introductions/271269-how-get-over-someone.html

Most people told me that I was being hard of myself, and two months was not enough time to get over someone. That I had to give it time and eventually I will move on. I accepted it at that moment and stopped looking for help further.

Now update from 10 months after my breakup. I have lost my job, Lost my health, I am broke, I am super depressed, can't sleep and have been doing some drugs for a while. But my problem still remains the same. I cannot seem to get over love.

I have thought over it again and again. I am still in love with her, and I have realized that I cannot live without her. The only reason, I haven't killed myself because she had taken promise from me that I won't.

I have come to a point that all my friends have given up on me. I used to make fun of people who say that they got hurt because of love, now Karma is making fun of me, and I deserve it. Its most probably my fault. I feel tired, so very tired. I am hopeless and just want this pain to be over.

The funny thing is, I do not know even know why I posting it. I guess, to middle finger the person who said 'it gets better'.

Anyway, In one of my drunk actions, I revisited this bookmarked post of mine, decided to say hey ... Don't be a sucker, Never fall in love

Cheers