Thank you for all the responses!
I have thought about adoption before. I really thought it was something I would like to do until a woman I know told me she was told by the state she cannot because she had a history of depression and a suicide attempt. I had a suicide attempt in my teens. I'm not sure if I would be eligible to adopt. It is expensive and I don't think it is am easy process.
I knew Lamictal was an ok drug to be on when you're pregnant. I was on it for years and I really believe it saved my life. Just recently my body got too used to the max dose and it wasn't working anymore so we are trying new things. I am really happy for those of you that are happy as parents. At this point I don't know if I can do it, so I will wait and enjoy what I have right now. Another thing that scares me is I read bipolar people have a 90% divorce rate. Sometimes I think it's hard for people to deal with me and I wear them down.

Kittlies, maybe you can find some meds that are ok to be on when you're pregnant. My heart is breaking for you. I hope everything goes back to normal for you soon. Don't let failing some classes discourage you from going on. I failed out of college when I was younger. I got academic suspension for a while but I went back and graduate soon. You can do it! Sometimes you can drop late in the semester. My college it is Dec. 13. It counts as an attempt but you wouldn't get suspended. You should look into it if you are not going to pass. Then you should be able to take them next semester. I hope you get back on track.
Much love