I'm so sorry you are in such a low spot, I understand. I agree with Vans, if my med cocktail isn't right then neither am I, which it isn't and I'm still depressed too. Wish there was a magic button to push to reset my processor. It works with my computer, why not wiht me.
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Bipolar I, Depression, GAD Meds: Zoloft, Zyprexa, Ritalin
"Each morning we are born again. What we do today is what matters most." -Buddha