well T and my pdoc and me lowered my risperdal dose by .5 mg. things have been going well so far. no voices or paranoia. T seems to be worried that i wont tell him if they come back because i want off the meds so bad. he always questions me when i say they havent come back yet. he squints his eyes and looks like me like hes trying to find the truth but im telling the truth. i told T i wouldnt want them to come back and i would tell him if they did.

i work today 11 to 8. 9 hours. not really looking forward to it.