Oh yes. I try diligently not to avoid her, but sometimes my fear or hurt is overwhelming and I do. I will not speak, or I will threaten to cancel appointments. I get afraid to lose her by saying the wrong thing, or to be misunderstood, and sometimes I get so absolutely panicked about those things that I cry in frustration instead of speak what's on my mind. Yesterday was like that, for a while. Other times, I feel angry or threatened, and avoid speaking to her.

Yet she is calm and steady, most always, and I usually cannot hold out long avoiding her. My feelings break through, painfully, and I make my peace with her and open back up.

Goodness it is hard. Thanks for posting this thread!