omg I get this lol .last session I was tearing up and I could hardly hold it back my eyes kept tearing and even leaking some but I would quickly wipe with hand .at one point she said I needed to hear what she was saying and that I needed to look at her .I shook my head no.she asked if it was because I was going to cry .I said NO I wasn't and that made me be able to pull it all back in and under control .I will never let her see me like that