I can hardly contain myself (in a good way) right now! So excited.
Here's what happened and what I've never revealed on PC.
I am returning to college in the spring (less then a month away, yay) to finish my bachelors next semester and I'm hoping to get into the Counseling Psychology masters program at BSU in the fall. I had never talked about this with my T because I value her opinion so much and I have been afraid of what she may think/say about it. She has been aware for some time, that I was holding something back and we have periodically discussed why I was holding back.
So today, she asked me again why and I admitted I was concerned about her judging me. She's never been judgmental so I have felt really guilty not telling her but every time I'd get close I just couldn't. I told her I felt awful keeping something important from her but I just can't get it out. She then came right out and said that...she thought that what I was having trouble telling her is that I want to become a therapist. I couldn't believe she said it out loud but I was so relieved and I admitted it was true. She went on to say that she thinks I'd be a great therapist and she supports me 100%. She even listed reasons why she thought it's the right choice for me. Which, makes me believe that she actually means it. She really does think that I'd be a great T. It makes sense to her. It's not just her constant positive regard. I guess I could be wrong and she doesn't really feel that way, but I don't believe she's ever lied to me. So, for right now, I'm on cloud nine. After all, I don't have to hold back anymore and I got an awesomely positive response. I feel like a huge weight has been lifted off me and I'm light as a feather. I actually feel joyful!! I haven't felt this good since I realized that becoming a T is the path I should take. It's been months and months. I feel so lucky and blessed.
Wow, she knows me so well!!! LOL
Sorry I'm rambling. I told you I couldn't contain myself!!!!!
Sorry I used a hundred faces. I actually had to erase some to post