My therapist was the father I never had. I lost him abruptly and it didn't end well at all. I am grieving terribly. It's not like a death grief, but it is grief and should be treated as such. It's horrible and I know this might not relate to mom issues, but I am dealing with horrible loss and grief and sadness and pain and blaming myself and wondering if any of the work we did together was worth anything. It's awful.