Unguy, you have a short list of things to follow up on. You've been trying new things, and that shows some motivation. Good. Now I think you need to try exploring the most promising options on your list. Like poli sci, sports for people with physical disabilities, and optimism options. I have always been a pessimist/cynic/realist, but I have learned a little optimism and creativity recently. It helps to feel a bit better - with rational optimism, not pollyanna optimism. Mainly the idea that each day you can make choices based on plans, and evaluate the results afterwards - and continually adjust your course. It's a lot better than being becalmed and the best way to get somewhere under your own steam rather than hoping for rescue. You can start your social interactions with discussion groups in your area of interest, on the net. When your smile reawakens, you'll be ready for all the social options of your big city.

Recently I got out of a funk that has lasted more than a year since surgery I had. I would like to share with you what helped me: 10 minutes of breath meditation 2-3 times a day for a month. This showed me the patterns of my mind, and increased my ability to focus. Then I had to decide what to focus on and for how long. I cut out some useless things and chose priorities to focus on first in the day. I postponed gulty-pleasure type websites or self-indulgent surfing til after 6 pm. I continue to plan, evaluate, and adjust my direction. Maybe it would work for you, too.