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Originally Posted by Markhor
I'm not diagnosed with disassociative disorder, but I am diagnosed with depression. I have been getting odd symptoms of being stuck in "The Matrix" or my life is like a film. I noticed I shut down in public, and others see that. I get this surreal feelong i'm not really who I am and I do not actually perceive what's there like everything is an illusion or dream.
I feel like I'm stuck in this dream and I feel melancholy. I sometimes cry thinking my life is made up and my family are just a figment of my mind. Then I get really angry at myself for thinking that the universe revolves around me.
Then I start thinking if I'm just a part of a beings imagination. That I am just an experience to look subjectively upon this being that is singular, but is everything. I hope I don't sound insane, or dumb.
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welcome to psych central.
my treatment providers also do not call these symptoms like your in me ...feeling like Im stuck in my life, Shutting down in social / public situations, perceiving reality as an illusion /dream world , feeling melancholy, crying a lot, bursts of anger at myself or others... dissociation.
in me these same symptoms are called depression and psychosis, and bipolar disorder. in others I know this grouping of symptoms is called menopause, which happens to women who have reached an age bracket where this group of symptoms happens, or they have had reproductive surgeries like hysterectomy as birth control method or due to cancer.
my treatment providers have me on some meds that help keep my symptoms in control and when those symptoms get worse we do adjustments or changes in meds which gets me back on track.
I also visit the depression and bipolar boards. sometimes it helps.