My strongest feeling is loss, and a great sadness that sits like a lake with a dam that might break someday but probably won't, I feel the pressure. I have always considered anger a secondary emotion, very useful for protection (say, when young/or in actual danger--depending on the situation} from vulnerability and the actual emotions/grieving associated with loss that is not "material", not useful in real life unless channeled into good work against injustice; even then, without compassion for the "enemy" (usually a system/set of beliefs accepted without true thought, rather than a person) it is unlikely you will get anywhere. When my anger explodes, I know I must be feeling very trapped, ineffective, and, yes, fearful.