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Originally Posted by ShrinkPatient
I understand the feeling of not being able to envision a future. You are not alone. There are soooo many of us.
There is nothing wrong with being in a mental facility. So please don't feel ashamed. I hope you don't mind if I share some of my experiences with you.
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I've never really talked about how much I've been hospitalized on PC. Not because I'm ashamed but because I wanted to leave it behind but I really felt compelled to share it with you. I hope it helps some.
I can't tell you all that I learned because something's we have to learn on our own, but I will tell you this, You only have a future if you choose it. You have to face the future without keeping suicide as an option.
I'll be thinking of you.  |
Nothing wrong with it at all -- I know that intellectually. I know that morally. I know that for everyone but myself. In fact, a guy I have gotten to know quite well who is bipolar and schizoaffective was put inpatient back in September, taken away by the police to the ER, and I certainly DO NOT feel at all about him like I do about myself -- he is the nicest guy, and he has worked really hard to overcome his illness. It was just a medication thing, his Dr. was changing things up and it didn't work.
Thank you for sharing. I know intellectually it's a choice (I keep using that phrase to distinguish between my thoughts and my feelings, I guess the best way to explain it). I am glad it helped you, and I thank you so much for your concern.
I just have to shake this thing, and I just plain do not know HOW to do that. It's like a constant, almost palpable presence that comes in at random times, and especially at stressful times. I can be doing just fine, having a good day, and some tiny little thing will set me off, and I'm right back to that thought.
I wonder if hypnosis would work to drive it out of my mind, or substitute some other thought for that one.