First - HUGS to you.

Sorry for all your struggles. I am not sure if you are *up* for my attempt to try to raise your spirits.....

I am Christian - so if you are not or you are not religious - feel free to ignore my post.... (and that does not mean I am "righteous" - in fact, it is my failures that makes me run to Christ).

I believe in the bible and I believe God when He said he will not give you more than you can handle.

That being said - I think God is actually giving you some praise - He says - I know you can handle this.

So - HOW do you handle it? One breathe at a time. A lot of kleenexes. A lot of tears and prayers. Maybe some time viewing old photographs. Or listening to music. And with the knowledge that THIS world is not the end. You will see them (both) again.

*hugs and I hope you find some comfort soon.