Don't feel alone. Being depressed and suicidal is not a sign there is anything wrong with you. Hang on and find some friends here on PsychCentral who can help you by listening to the problems you deal with every day. We know it is very difficult to find other people who understand these feelings, but most of us have felt the way you are feeling now. It's worth learning how to be happy so you can have a reason to get up in the morning.