Addiction is tough. Sorry you lost your dad. I know you would love to have him back. I know his death must have been very hard on you at such a young age, though it is never easy no matter how old you are. Losing a parent hurts.
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Bipolar I, Depression, GAD Meds: Zoloft, Zyprexa, Ritalin
"Each morning we are born again. What we do today is what matters most." -Buddha