First of all thanks for reading! My husband and I have been married six years now. Two years ago my husband told me he was bi-sexual. At first I had a difficult time accepting this but quickly accepted that what he was sexually interested in was no problem as long as I was included and no secrets kept. Soon after telling me this he also told me he likes swinging and wanted me to be involved in that life style. Ofcourse we discussed jealousy issues and the strange feelings of having sex with a different partner. Again I accepted and we have had only one interaction since then. Four months ago I went out of town for 3 days. When I returned he showed me some pictures of him dressed up and was terrified I would leave him. I didnt and told him I accepted him for who he wanted to be and I love him no matter who that is. He has no interest in a sex change operation, just likes to put on prosthetic breasts, makeup and women's clothes. He has now become comfortable enough to meet with other CD swingers and have some fun. He has met one individual of interest and wants to meet this person alone first to make sure they are comfortable before bringing me into the picture. I feel as though if he has intercourse without me there it is cheating. I also would feel awkward when I am allowed to participate since there will already be something established between them that I dont know about. My husband swears he is not interested at all in men and does not find them attractive, but I still feel like a third wheel. I also can not get over the fact he waited to tell me 6 years after our marriage. I do have to mention my husband decided a year ago that we were not compatible, and we separated fora bout a month and a half. He finally decided that wasnt what he wanted but I still hold some hard feelings from them because he literally broke my heart and I guess my trust as well. We have discussed all of this at length and he stands beside his statement that he only loves me but I am a little lost in how I feel at this point. Can anyone help? I feel a little better getting out but now re-reading this, I am even more confused. Any help would be greatly appreciated.