The shame, dissipates with time. Keep working towards your recovery, and it's good that you are seeing the value of your life. The deeper depression, that brought to that point, takes time to come out from. Accepting, depression, as something you'll need to manage, from this point forward is a reality, that many of us live with. I agree with, kaliope, about your daughter. Eventually, that shock, will wear off, for her. As it, will for you, as well.