I have a close relationship to my T. We've been working together for 3.5 years and seeing each other twice per week. We've been through an inpatient hospitalization, hours and hours of trauma work, continuous stressors in my professional life, an empty social life, anniversaries of my big sister's death, not to mention more mood swings than can be counted and failed med changes for my bipolar and ADHD. BUT I could never shed more than a few tears in therapy. And this was the case with my previous therapists, too. Then today it happened. I was struggling while we were working on tough stuff, she asked me if I wanted her to sit next to me as we sometimes do and I said yes (she checked twice to be sure), and then once she sat next to me, I just put my head on her and started to cry. And really cry. Loud, sobs, trouble catching my breath, etc. We stayed like this for about 5 minutes. And I probably could have cried more. But it was a breakthrough for me to allow myself to really feel sadness and let it out - I thought it would never happen. I'm just so glad that this happened, finally, as it's been strange and frustrating not to be able to cry like this (or really at all) in therapy or really on my own. I so rarely cry for stuff about me - for a sad episode of Law and Order SVU, yes, but when it's about me the tears don't come... Just wanted to share with people who get it. Thanks for listening.