I was molested when I was six years old. My sexual addiction mirrors my sexual abuse. I have an oral fixation cuz when I was molested it included oral sex with an adult male. I have been sexually permiscuous for years. And it is no longer exciting or fun. It is stressful and I don't know why I still do it. I feel like my brain is hardwired for impulse control problems and i am permanently damaged. I have thought about suicide for years. Eventually I will probably do it. i won't be surprised