I was really impressed by my pdoc when I first met him. I was too anxious to really explain my situation when I first met him, but he managed to ask the right questions and at the end of the interview I felt understood by another human being for the first time. He also has times when he is really caring and kind, and it just makes my heart melt.

But other times, not so much. Whenever I come in with serious symptoms, he gives me a confused look and tells me that I am on "the best meds there are". He only changes my meds if I am experiencing serious side effects; he seems indifferent to whether they are controlling my symptoms or not.

I talked to my pdoc yesterday because I am a mess-mixed, hallucinating, anxious as hell. He was 20 minutes late, and then he ended the appointment after only 9 minutes. I didn't get to tell him about the symptoms I was most concerned about (sui thoughts and impulsive SI). He told me that I was psychotic and said I should double my zyprexa. The only problem is that I am on Symbyax, which is Zyprexa and Prozac in one pill. I can't up the Zyprexa without also increasing the Prozac, and taking a higher dose of an SSRI might not be a smart thing for me to do when I'm already so manic-y.

Shouldn't he have taken more time with me, allowed me to explain (or heck, even directly asked me about) my dark thoughts?

The last time I saw him in a crisis, he didn't change my meds at all-just told me to come back in 3 weeks. Yet, when I was titrating up on abilify but overall doing well, he wanted to see me every week...

I feel like he is a really great human being, and occasionally he is a really good, conscientious, caring doctor. But other times, I'm not so sure....

Should I look into getting another doctor? I really, really like my doctor as a person, but sometimes I feel like he can't really give me the time and dedication I need.