The only other one in my house that could deal with the rent situation is my husband, and he is going to have to deal with it because I'll be at the doctors from 9-5 for two days and sick as heck.

It's too much stress one right after another. My urges and actions have gotten worse over the past few weeks, and I think even my T's don't know what else to do with me other than offer hospitalization but we haven't truly discussed it as a plan.