Ugh. Good mood didn't last. I knew it wouldn't.

I've still been talking to Chris, the guy from the dating site, though it seems like I have to initiate a lot of conversations, which is never good. I asked him if we'd be able to get together at all this weekend and he just said that he was doing something with a friend on Saturday but he'd let me know later. He's said before that he's not the type of person that likes to set up plans too far in advanced, so I guess I understand, but it still is kind of annoying to not know. I had asked him on Monday if we could get together Wednesday and he just said he'd have to check, but he never told me yes or no and we never did get together.

This is starting to fall into a pattern that's all too familiar to me. I don't have much experience with guys in the past (Other than Chris, there are only 3 really worth mentioning), but in all of those past cases, the guy said he was interested in continuing some kind of relationship, but when I asked about actually getting together, I never really got a straight answer and eventually the guy just kinda dropped off the face of the earth. I'm terrified that the same thing is happening yet again. I really want to ask Chris if he's serious about wanting to continue to see me, but I'm afraid to. Afraid of the truth if he doesn't and afraid that my insecurity will scare him away even if he really did want to see me again